Releasing and renewing my commitment to keep those that would put me down far away from me.
This is a letter to my therapist and continues to prove that the business of treating mental illness is flawed. Still looking for professional who understands me.
Dear 28 year old therapist just out of school.
After we got off our last session I was depressed and deflated. It was something you said.
I know you don’t know much about me but one thing you should know is I have always been a writer. It’s what I do well. When you were talking about grounding myself I should have said writing was one of the most important ways to do just that.
I don’t write much anymore and it’s been my goal to get back to doing that. When I told you I use to write for hours, your first response was “that could be a sign of mania.” ????? How incredibly wrong you were. Do you think successful screenwriters and novelists, like Stephen King, are manic? They write. They write all the time. Sadly I feel you see me as a diagnoses. That’s what you were trained to do. By saying writing a lot could be a sign of illness cut me to the core.
I realize you are young and just out in the working world, but I don’t think we mesh. I’m 58 years old. I have had experiences that you have not. That’s not wrong. I believe I need an alternative therapist who deals with spiritual world.
We also spent time analyzing something that brings joy to my life. Why would I pay someone to take the good things in my life you may not understand and turn them into a problem? You also talked about adjusting my meds based on this. I was horrified. I wanted to talk about my night terrors, my regrets and my ptsd.
My spiritual life is off limits. My beliefs are my own.
I want a therapist that does not talk about my medication or one who tries to change my medication. I’ve got a psychiatrist for this. I am looking for someone that does dream work, spiritual support and therapy.
You are a very nice person and I was happy to meet you, however I don’t think we mesh. You took something that is precious to me and turned it into illness. That was a deal breaker.
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