Thirty years ago on September 11th, 1992 I went into labor with my first and only child. My pregnancy was perfect and I had the last three months to stay home from work and nest in my husband and I’s new home. I remember loving being pregnant. This little person was my buddy. Every move and kick, every week I’d look up in the book “What To Expect When You Are Expecting” what size the baby was. Waking up everyday knowing this little being was mine. We choose not to find out the gender of the baby because we wanted a surprise. I did want a boy very badly and had picked the name Maximilian years before.
So that morning on the 11th of September 1992, they induced my labor. I had a cassette called “Music To Be Born By” by Mickey Hart from The Grateful Dead. He had recorded the heartbeat of his son in utero years before and created a droning drum infused melody for mother’s to use to breath by. My Mother in Law was Swedish so she had this sweet accent. My Gram was in the room with me when Swedish Omi came in and said “oh my, what interesting music.” The labor lasted for many hours. It started off easy but as induction goes it them came on hard. Not many hours to get use to labor. The hard labor lasted nearly 12 hours. The time to push seemed like it lasted hours. I got an epidural so there wasn’t much room for walking around and I had an iv for fluids. Unlike the way babies use to be delivered like in Call The Midwife, women were given well sugared tea to keep them going. I was not allowed anything to drink. Only a wet towel you could suck on. There was no pain, but the dehydration I felt was really bad. I kept crying and crying for orange juice for hours and was refused. I understood why, but this caused me to started to become confused. Pushing was a problem because I was so thirsty. You would have thought the iv would have taken care of that. If that is the worst thing I can complain about giving birth, then I’m very lucky. Woman have suffered so during childbirth since the beginning of time. It was almost midnight and I just wasn’t pushing much. No woman thinks they are going to get through their first delivery but you always do.
That last push came and then…………
It’s a boy!! They laid him on my chest. He is so heavy I said. (8lbs 12ozs) I couldn’t continue to hold him as I had a fever, so they handed him over to Daddy. He looked a bit pale from the whole thing. In came everyone else and they all held him. I finally got that orange juice.
While they were preparing my room, I was put in a temporary room. The room was dark, only the dim lights coming from the hallway. I lay there, chemicals pumping through my system like I’d never felt. The sheer euphoria I felt. Like the best natural drug in the cosmos. I thought “I just had a baby. There is a new person on Earth and I pushed him out. He came through me. How did I do that?” I looked up at the clock and it was about 2:10am by then. Time froze. It is one of those memories that will pass before my eyes at my death I’m sure. That clock on that wall in that dimly dark room is one of my happy places. I will hope I never ever forget that feeling.
Little Max was born at 12:12am on September 12, 1992.
Years later after 9/11, it occurred to me that if I had been more of a fierce pusher that day, my Son would be doomed to have a September 11th birthday. Sorry to take the story to a downturn but every year on Sept 11th, that horrible day in history when the towers came down, there is nothing but talk of great sadness.
I remember on this day and tomorrow that my little boy is going to be 30 years old with his own babies and I’m so glad I had him. He is truly the best thing that has ever happened to me, and on September 11th I’m going to choose every year that on this day, I went into labor and had a sweet child. The best gift I ever got to quote Barbara Streisand, except when I got two more gifts, my Grandchildren.
Thank you God for all you have given me.
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